New Years - A New Fresh Start

Yesterday I just arrived from Switzerland. 15 hours of flight, 7 hours of layover. Kind of jetlagged. And since today is New Years, I deciced to make a New Years Resolution.

My New Years Resolution

1. Friends will stay friends. Once you make friends, you keep them 'til the very end. (:

2.Manage to loose weight somehow and actually accomplish it.

3. Stop eating as much sweets. ;p

4. Actually study since I don't.

5. Do my kumon and don't let the books pile up.

6. Be organized and clean up after myself. (I'm such a slob.)

7. Create IMVU products.

8. Enhance my HTML skills and probably learn PHP.

ANYWAYS, this is from yesterday afternoon to current time.

Wow. That seems a lot. Anyways, I get home at 5pm. I drop my stuff and thankful I'm home. Warm and humid instead of cold and dry. Then all of a sudden, Alex runs down the stairs and hugs me. Man, I really missed Alex. D: I missed getting hugs, and he waited 2 hours at my house waiting for me to get home. Thank you Alex. I really owe it to you. :] Saranghae Alex. (: Later on, I skype Nadine to come over. She brought the mice, the 4 mice we bought before going to Switzerland is still alive. Thank you, Nadine. And I went to her house because there was a party and we played DDR. After that, when it was close to midnight, I went home. NEW YEARS! Shot some fireworks, and Nadine joined later. I got a watch, and a music box from my mom. Thank you, Mom. (: Nadine had to go home, and so I started freaking out. I saw Ryuki online, and say I'm back from Switzerland, and my New Years Resolutions. Ryuki, I'd like to thank you, for starting my life. For everything you've done. I can't say enough thank yous in the world to show my gratitude. Thank you for being there when I need you. (:

Tranquil Tuesday.

It's been a while since I updated my blog. So I decided I should.

Monday Night.
I fell asleep talking to Johnsen. He had this really adorable plushy. I want it.

Tuesday morning. - 3am.
I woke up. Something felt different. Wtf was I laying on? After a while, I couldn't feel my hand. I slept on it for 5 hours, so it was like completely numb. I didn't feel it, I couldn't move it. I freaked like hell. After a while of trying to get it to un-numb, I went to sleep.

Tuesday morning - 5:30am.
I wake up once again. Thankful I didn't fall asleep on my hand again. My mom told me to check under my pillow, and I found 1000pesos. Thank you ToothFairy. I took a shower, made lunch for Dylan, Nadine, Alex and me. Left home about 6:55. Wishing we wouldn't be late. We got there just in time for the bell. During homeroom, Steve told me Alex drank alchohol over the weekend. Everything just froze.

Science - 8am.
Today, everyone was in groups of 4. I was left out because I had to take a test. I studied for it last night and everything, but some of the questions completely blew my mind. I couldn't think. Some of it I just guess. Hopefully I got some right. After the test, I was able to pick any group. So I picked the group with Lieve, Donald, Steve, and Jung Bin. Chit chated with Lieve. After a while, I told Lieve I wasn't feeling so good. She gave me a few tic tacs which helped me for a while.

Physical Education - 9:45am.
I really didn't feel good at all. Neither did I bring my PE uniform, so I just sat out. Ms. Asperas told me us we had to do the dance all over again because we presented horrible on Monday. Unfortunately, I felt horrible right that momment. I asked Alex what was the meaning of him drinking alchohol. He said he didn't. Who was I to believe? A person who told me he drank alchohol, or a person who say he didn't? Maybe he wanted to hide it from me since he knows I'm not into those sort of guys. And guess what? Alex is my partner. I didn't want to dance with him. Nor did I even wanted to look at him. I felt like my whole body just died. I was starting to tear up and everything. Right there, I felt like I was going to faint, just throw up. After Ms. being persistance of me dancing, I finally did. After, I went to the clinic. She decided to sent me home.

Home - 11:45am.
I got home, really feeling sick. I finally passed out on the bed for about 3 hours. I woke up, and found my air con off from the maids cleaning it. I felt even more horrible from the intense heat. I went downstairs were it was cool and watched a movie with my mom. It was all about witches and black magic and stuff. Really awkward. The cooling air made me feel a little bit better. I decided to go back to school because I didn't want to skip Superman. You only get 3 days to not attend, and I didn't want to miss a day. Because you can't advance a grade in CIS if you do not attend a club. Superman was my only club.

School - 3pm.
I reach school, and had 15 minutes of Math before clubs started. So I went into Math class and everyone was surprised I was there. I ended up chit chatting with Katie D. about wisdom teeth and shyt. I went to Superman, and I had to shout. It hurt my throat. I'm Killer. Which is really awkward, because he's a guy, so I have to dress as a guy.

Home - 5pm.
I went home, layed down for a while, made some miso soup, and played Rohan. Bascially couldn't do anything because I felt really bad. Ah well. I'm going to sleep.

Sleep. - 8:30pm.

Wacko Wednesday.

Early in the morning, I was talking to RyRy, just like always at 1am. I fell asleep tho talking to him, sadly. ): I woke up bright and early today. Got ready, showered, put away my stuff, did my homework the night before, so I had nothing to worry about. I felt good. (: I made bacon and eggs for my brother and I and it was delicious. ^^ I biked to Nadine's house with my backpack and my purse, just riding with the wind. Why was I so happy?

I reach school around 7:10am, and great everyone with a warm welcome. "HI LIEVE! ^^ HI KIE, DREA! HI ALEXX!" and so on. When I got there, I realized Donald was here. He was absent the day before because he was sick. He's not really my best bud, but he's okay. We're just friends I guess. I'm trying to find out who he likes. It's entertaining to see who your friend likes, you see? Anyways, watched some videos on Lieve's computer. (:

Music.

We had a recorder test, and I ended up getting perfect on that. Yada. Yada. Passed notes with Lieve. Tried not to bother Donald, because I said I wouldn't. Yelled at Harry for being a perv. Practiced a piano song we were going to have for a test. Also, we're doing this play called Miss Saigon. Apparently, I'm the lead person with Philline. We're the same character, but we exchange so we don't have a heavy load.

IT.
We basically fooled around. Got scolded by Mr.Burgos. He apparently was unhappy with my homepage and my website. He said it looked boring because all my pages had all the same background. He told me that now after making a lot. --; Professional webpages have the same background on almost all their pages. So why can't it be professional? Anyways, my webpage was kind of advanced already. ;P Stupid Mr.Burgos. Chatted with Lieve on Skype, had a fun time fooling around.

Mandarin.
We had a quiz on family members and pronouns. Got 12/12. (: I'm just so awesome like that! Nah, not really. Learned colors, and we actually have Book 2 of Chinese. (: Woo! This is all exicting. :]

Lunch.
I saw Alex, and waved. He told me there were some rumors around about me. He only told me a few out of the plenty going around. He told me that Donald and I had a mutual relationship, which was were I know he loves me, and he knows I love him, which is totally not true. ;P 1. I don't know who he likes. 2. I don't like him. Another one is that Donald's my new bud. Bascially rumors of me and Donald. Don't ask why. Then I saw Deion and Kana fighting. I saw Kana crying, I tried asking what happened, but they didn't say anything. Silent Treatment. Alex said it had to deal with some writing on his planner. Uh-oh. I wrote I love Deion on Deion's planner. Was it about that? I meant it as a brother. I mean, I wrote, "I love Lieve." It doesn't neccessarily mean that I actually love her. I loved her as a best friend. Nothing more, nothing less. Was I the flame that started this all?

Social Studies.
Deion came in all depressed. Something bad happened. I let Deion use my laptop to talk to Kana since they were fighting. I felt guilty enough already for starting it. Lieve and I worked on the poster. Actually worked, and made an effort. I can't get a failing grade for Social Studies. Not anymore. I'm a part of the Superman play in my school, and if you get a failing grade in one subject, out you go. So, I got to get things straight. Got a meeting tomorrow about Superman. (:

AfterSchool.
I went to Kumon, did a book, left. Went to Starbucks, got a Tall Green Tea Frap like always. Got my bro a Raspberry Fruit Frap, he liked it. We ate at Bigby's, and my family and I had fun with my DSi. We took a lot of funny pictures. Maybe I might post one later. :] Got home, talked with Lieve about some serious stuff. Also talked with Alex about the past even though it hurt him, and talked with Ryuki. He misses Yee Yin very much and I hope he can get a grasp of her heart again. I feel sorry for him. Ryuki's an awesome guy. A very important guy in my life. Love him to death.

I was suppose to sleep at 8, but I stayed up to talk to some special people, so I'm off to bed. (:
Love you guys.
♥ Brownie

Saturday. Awesome B-day Party. :]

This morning I woke up all tired. We we're up all night doing stuff. Dozed off at about 1am. Had to wake up at 8 to get stuff ready for the b-day party. Went on Facebook to check if anyone was joining my party, and amazingly enough I see Ryry was on doing a few stuff. He was also online last night. I freaked out looked at my msn, he wasn't online. Looked at my skype, not online. So I messaged him through Facebook chat. He told me he'd get on skype. So he did. First he said that his mom wasn't in the room, so we could chat. Then after a while. The truth was told. He said he made it all up. It wasn't his mother all along. He couldn't handle the stress with exams and having a girlfriend half way around the world. So he broke up with me and went with Chaz. I seriously couldn't cry because I didn't have any tears right then. Nothing teared out my eyes. Just a painful jab in the heart. I just told Ryry that it was okay, I forgave him. I just told him not to randomly disappear from me again. Or not lie to me like that. I was just too happy to talk to him. I've gone INSANE. I.N.S.A.N.E. for the past few days without him. I didn't care if he was with another person. All that matter was, he was happy, and okay. He's with Chaz now. She seems pretty nice, so I got nothing to worry about. :] Anyways, I'll just wait for Ryry until he's ready to be with me again or until I move to England. x; I don't think distance is a barrier of love, but proof to show how much you love that person. So I'll wait for you, Ryry. ^^

Anyways, after that, went to my old house, got my DDR stuff and a change of clothes and went to Ayala. Looked for water guns, the whole mall didn't have any. Damn. So we just bought P1235 worth of balloons which is about $26? That's not that much. We saw this store that had a bunch of action figures and it was adorable. Went to Starbucks got a drink. Yeah.

Back at home, we filled like a billion water balloons. Waited for some people to come. The first to come was Kie. She helped us filled some balloons. 20 minutes later, Lieve comes and helps us. We filled like 100. Then sooner Alex is here with Steve. They brought like 50 tiny water balloons? o.O The ones Nadine and I bought were party balloons. 9inches, 12inches. Huge ass balloons. They helped us filled some. So we brought them outside in buckets. The first fight, we started throwing at each other. We got soaked. xD It was a mess. I got Alex extra hard for Ryry. xD We were on the streets just throwing balloons at each other. xD Then we ran out. Kana and Deion came after the fight, sadly. Then Steve had to go.

After a while, we all changed. Then it was DDR time. Dance Dance Revolution. A very addicting game. I showed my horrible skills to them, and they started to play. Kana, Deion, Nadine, and Alex all played DDR. Lieve & Kie just decided to pass on this one. Alex and Deion got very addicted later. They actually do pretty good. But they tend to show off. xD Like if there was a time where they could spin, they spun. I took some videos. Lieve took a video of me doing this song, and yeah. I'll post the videos of Deion & Alex later.

Around 5, we went to Nadine's house and played Rock band2. I wasn't amazed how Deion and Alex got hooked up, but Kie was really into it. o.o She really enjoyed the bass and guitar. She was also good at it. Lieve and I tried playing the Sims 3. We all made our characters, but Kie eventually accidentally deleted our characters. But she only minimized it but the rest didn't know that. I hugged Alex a lot.. ^^; Uh yeah.

Nadine and I prepared dinner for them. We were preparing steamboat with sukiyaki beef and pork bacon. Put udon noodles since I bet Kie liked it. Everyone said it was good. And we had a swell dinner.

After a while we went back to my new house and played DDR for a while. Then everyone of them had to go like every 30 minutes. It was sad. ): I asked Deion if he could hug me and he did. ^^ I felt short tho. xD Oh, well.

My presents. I got hoop earrings from Kie. They were adorable. I got this solar powered flower thing that was just too cute. Nadine payed for the balloons and helped me with my party. Alex's and Steve's present was this really cute black belt with a guitar on it. Ryry gave me this recording of him playing Sweet Child of Mine. xD

Ryry and I talked for a while on Skype call. It's been forever since I've heard his voice, so I couldn't stop smiling. I decided to fall asleep to his voice. Just like before. Oh how I wished those days would come back. x;

Thank you Nadine, my parents, Lieve, Kie, Alex, Deion, Kana, Steven, and Ryry for making my birthday a wonderful one. ^^

I'll make this simple and quick since I want to make products on IMVU.

Thursday.
It was a simple day. I woke up all tired and I wanted to sleep even more. Sleeps becoming more addicting to me. So I wake up, and go to school.

Science Class.
It was really perverted. Our Science teacher is really perverted. xD We were learning forces. He defined forces as a push or pull between two bodies. He circled two bodies. Yeah. And my friend, Donald, we were trying to find out who he liked. He's leaving in December, so I'm trying to make him feel loved before he leaves. :D

PE. Swimming.
I didn't swim because I just didn't. Lieve, Katie D. and I just sat out. Watched the rest swim. Yeah. Just chit chatted.

English.
Pretty much just annoyed Donald and hanged with Lieve. Had to stay after during my lunch time doing my final draft because I didn't finish.

Math.
Passed notes with Donald and Lieve basically the whole class.
Got a few clues.
Clue #1 : A
Clue #2 : T.A.K.E.
Clue #3 : In our grade.
That's it.

Gym. Yoga.
Did yoga. Hurt like hell. D: Yeah.

Home.
Went home, found out I lost my laptop somewhere in school. Mom lectured me. Yeah. Went to sleep early tearing up.

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Morning.
I woke up in my original bedroom. Felt strange because I've been dosing off in the computer room. Ate. Went to school.

Homeroom.
Check around and found my laptop under my desk.
Thankfully my Math seat is in the same room as my homeroom and I apparently sit in the same desk for homeroom and math.. >>

Music.
Had fun playing the piano and recorder. Recorders pretty much hurt my ears but yeah. Bugged Donald even more, and he got really annoyed, so I kind of backed off a bit. >< If you ever read this Donald, I'm sorry. ): Anyways, we listened to compositions, and John Woo, an awesome cute guy who Korean and plays the drums made this awesome composition and it's still stuck in my head. xD Hope you get famous one day John. xD

IT.
I was making a webpage and based it off my myspace. Brilliant. xD Yeah. Pretty much it. Spied on Donald again. XD

Mandarin.
Had a shit load of stuff needed to be done and studied. Lao Shi *teacher* is already giving us study guides for the end of semester exam. At least we'll be prepared, right?

Lunch.
Alex had detention, so I had no one else to bug. Where did I go? I found Santi at the gym, and wow. Donald was there, too. Santi, Jayce, and I bugged Donald about who he liked. Donald eventually left me and Jayce alone there. It felt awkward, so I told him we should just go up.

Social Studies.
I left Donald alone. Passed notes with Lieve. I asked Lieve what I should do for my b-day party, and she came up with a brilliant idea. Water balloon fight party. Brilliant. I asked who should I invite. We came up with a list: Lieve, me, Nadine, Alex, both Katies, DONALD, Simon, Tomo, Santi, John, Harry, Steven, Kie, Kana, Deion, Andrea, Mina, Jayce. Did I miss anyone?

After School.
I wanted to skip Catechism, and found out the teacher never came. Oh well, didn't want to go through another day of torture. Thank god. Went home, did a part of a cross stitch, waited 'til Nadine picked me up. Yeah.

Nadines House.
Watched Jeffree Star and now we're gonna make products for IMVU. xD Ryuki made this video for his bday and I wanna watch it. Well, I'm going to make IMVU products now, soo later. And also, Nadine's ankle is sprained and she was stomping around like an idiot. It was hilarious. xD

Wednesday. Waking up on the wrong side of the bed to sleeping on the best side of the bed.

This morning I woke up at 5:43am. I felt like I was going to throw up or something like that. It was just a horrible feeling I wanted to doze off again. Then my brother came in the room saying we had to leave home at 6:30am. Gah. Apparently my dad had to go to the hospital to get a CAT scan at 7:30.. so we had to be dropped off early. I tried staying home, but I just went to school. If I felt any worse, I'd just ask the nurse to go home. It was good that we left early, I had to do my music composition.

Music. Mr.Cruz was impressed with my piano composition. I made this composition in 30 minutes that impressed him. I guess the copying messed up, so the notes looked more complicated? I've just been obsessed with the piano lately. I've been trying to learn Tong Hua (Fairy Tale) at home because I promised Ryuki I would a while back. So I got my laptop, put it on the piano, searched how to play Tong Hua, and learned a few notes. Then I had to go do my homework and all that.

IT. Mr.Burgos was a pain in the ass during that block. He'd just ramble saying, "You have to finish this! You have to show your english and math teachers and periods and what you were learning in that class!" I looked at him with a blank stare. I pay attention in class. I never heard im once say that. Ah, well. Got some stuff done for the webpage.

Mandarin. I actually felt smart in Mandarin today. That's amazing. I remembered stuff that I thought I wouldn't remember. I answered a lot of the questions. Actually made an effort to understand. And the teacher was impressed with me today. Thank you Ms.Holayson for making my day better.

History Class. I payed attention. I didn't fool around. I took notes. What's happening to me? This isn't me, but I should get used to it. I should be doing well in school. Not just fooling around. Ah well, I have to research on this guy called Captain Patrick Logan. Oh oh oh, I'll do better in History, just watch me. ;D

I get home, my mom rings up my dad, says I have to go to Kumon. So I do. Went to Ayala, went to Kumon, went to the computer store, got Counter Strike. Yes. I did. ;p Had dinner at Gustavians. Mom yelled at me for not texting her because she never knew. My bro told me he told my mom. Apparently, he didnt. So I got scolded. Yippee.

I get home and I chit chat with Ryuki and Alex. I asked Nadine to double check her room for my phone. Alex and I talked about some stuff.

[9:03:08 PM] .AlexLee.: I am sorry...
[9:05:01 PM] .AlexLee.: hey... I am sorry you had a bad day...
[9:05:18 PM] .AlexLee.: I will try to make it better for you tom...
[9:05:22 PM] .AlexLee.: promise
[9:06:47 PM] Browniee_xx <3:>< [9:08:01 PM] Browniee_xx <3:>

Pretty sweet. (: And now to Ryuki. Apparently he wants a Filipino sim card as well. Gotta save up and make some money. Now, this is what I have to buy: keyboard replacement for my lenovo computer. a new cellphone for me. a cellphone for ryan (if he really wants it.) & a sim for Ryuki. Did I miss anything? I don't think so. Anyways, back to Ryuki. He showed me this song called Still by Taan. The lyrics are really sweet. But, there's this one part that makes me wonder.

"I still love you all this time.
'Cause i love your style,
And i feel your pain,
And i miss you girl.
Every single day."

I don't think Ryuki still loves me, but this song got me thinking. So yah. He loves Debbie, not me. XD Ah I've gone insane again. Oh well. x: I told him about this. And it's also on Ryuki's blog. I'm copying him. >:3

─»¤°×.Brownie!.×°¤«─ 胡慧雯 melancholic. says:
well
we planned
that
id send him this cheap phone
with a filipino sim in it
make it go roaming
so i can call that phone
for free if im on unli.

- Chris. imissyou. says:
):
I WANT ONE TOO. D:

─»¤°×.Brownie!.×°¤«─ 胡慧雯 melancholic. says:
u want one too? :]

- Chris. imissyou. says:
YEAAASH

─»¤°×.Brownie!.×°¤«─ 胡慧雯 melancholic. says:
XD

- Chris. imissyou. says:

(:
─»¤°×.Brownie!.×°¤«─ 胡慧雯 melancholic. says:
fineee, ill get one for ur bday :]

- Chris. imissyou. says:
=D
=D
=D
=D
&heart;

─»¤°×.Brownie!.×°¤«─ 胡慧雯 melancholic. says:
XD

- Chris. imissyou. says:
I LIKE
(:

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─»¤°×.Brownie!.×°¤«─ 胡慧雯 melancholic. says:
i miss ur voice.
i miss those times
where i'd just get the phone

- Chris. imissyou. says:
o.o

─»¤°×.Brownie!.×°¤«─ 胡慧雯 melancholic. says:
sit on the couch downstairs
and just talk to you
or go outside
and be scared by the dog.

- Chris. imissyou. says:
i miss those times too bron (:

Ryuki's still very dear to me. A guy who was with me for the longest. 9 Months. Even though we fought a lot, we lasted long. Even though we lived half way around the world, our relationship lasted the longest. And I ended it. I regret it. I'm sorry Ryuki. I'd trying doing everything to let you forgive me, but I know nothing can repay back what I did to you. I'm truely sorry. Please forgive me. Haha. I have this cute picture in my mind, but I'm not saying it here because then it wouldn't be as special to me. <3 Anyways, I got to get going on my homework. Then sleeping. Maybe sit outside for a while just to enjoy the light rain on my skin. Maybe go downstairs and sit on that same couch I talked to Ryuki on. Sit on that bench outside that I got scared in, and when I see the dog, I'm probably going to start laughing because I realize how stupid I sounded on the phone. Well, night. <3

-Brownie

Tuesday. Back to school.

I fell asleep sometime around 12 midnight from chatting on IMVU. Met some pretty strange people. o.O Ah, well I met Ryuki on IMVU, so I guess it's just like that? But on Tuesday morning, I woke up at 5:29am. Same routine. Woke up, woke up my brother, told him to take a shower, made breakfast, ate, took a shower, woke up my dad, and yah. My mom's in the province right now. She's coming back on Wednesday night. Then she's off again on Friday. Yippee. ;P Apparently my mom's best friend from childhood, Tita Liza is going to visit us on Friday. It's her birthday on the 5th of November, but sadly, she's not going to celebrate it with us. ): Oh well, I hope Tita Liza brings Luke and maybe bring Uncle Matt with her. XD It's been forever since I've seen Uncle Matt because Liza and Matt had a divorse sometime when I was in 7th grade, so I didn't see them together for a while. ): It was really sad since Uncle Matt's in a band. :D He's so sweet at drums. @.@



Btw, speaking of drums, I bumped into Kyle Tackett in Myspace. It's been a year since I've heard from him. I wonder how he's doing. ;P I told him that I could call the states for free anytime I wanted, so I could talk to him all night if I really wanted to. Amazingly. I saw on some pictures he went back to taking drugs, so I'm going to kill him for doing so. Kyle Tackett, one of my ex's that lived in Kentucky. He's amazing like that. Apparently, he's got a girlfriend that's really sweet. ^^ I'm really happy for him. I still remember in November, for my birthday gift, he told me that he bought 2 backstage passes to a Slipknot concert on February 14. He's best friends with the drummer, Joey, so he could get backstage passes easily. Sad thing is, I moved to the Philippines during December, so I never went to that concert. ): Sadly.



Last night I was talking to Ryuki and Alex. Ryuki was saying he was having some girl problems with Debby again. O: He's so sweet when he has problems like that. It's always fun to cheer him up and see him smile. XD GOD DAMN IT. I want to go to KL again!! XD I want to go to KLCC and go out with him again, and just enjoy strolling around the mall with him. Just like April 6. The day I first met Ryuki. I just can't get over that day. But when I went to my old house, Ryuki was away. He was probably talking to one of his friends on the phone away from his computer laying down somewhere, or maybe laying on the roof like how he always does. All I know is, I fell asleep listening to the song Ryuki gave me. Such a sad but sweet song... I wish i could have someone as sweet as Ryuki.. ><

Monday. A day off from school.

Today was a day I got to take off from school because it was a holiday for us. Anyways, It's been forever since I updated because of school, and all that sort of stuff. I went back to chatting on IMVU, so yah. Got new clothes for it, tah-dah. I'm going to develop more on IMVU, so I'm planning to be a big hit for developing. Just watch me! XD MONEY HERE I COME! :D Anyways, also with the Flyff Private Server, my dad bought me a site name, and I decided to call it Nocturnal Flyff. xD Idk, just how I'm bascially awake during night, I thought of Nocturnal. xD I got the private server working on my laptop, and now I need to transfer the stuff on the real computer so people can actually connect to it. After that's done, I got to work on the website, and stuff. It sounds pretty close, so far. :]

Anyways, remember Ryan? Ryan Harrison? Turns out that we got into a few fights... and then soon after that, his mom started to get angry at me being with Ryan. She hated me being with him ever since we started. She doesn't believe that we'll ever meet. I'll prove her wrong. I met Ryuki, and went out with him, I met him, so why can't I do the same with Ryan? When we were "breaking up" (his mom forced him or else he would have his computer taken away) I thought he was just faking it because he didn't like me anymore. But the last time we were talking, he told me he was going to talk to his mom about how annoying and bitchy (excuse my french) she was. Then after that, he disappeared. What I believe is that he got into trouble, and his mom took away his computer and itouch, so I have NO contact to him whatsoever. But I thought of something. I have his cellphone number. I'll try calling him, just for a few minutes. I'll pay my dad later for the cost, but at least I get to hear the truth. Hope everything will turn out right in the future. But I'll be waiting for you RyRy. I will. I'll wait for you until you come back. Because I love you. <3 And I dedicated this whole paragraph for you.

Anyways, Alex and I are best friends now. He's trying to cheer me up because of the whole Ryan situation. And also, Ryuki and I have been talking lately. He's been having more girl problems. Ahh, Ryuki, you also never changed. Thank you. :3 Thank yuu for keeping your promise. (: I owe you one bud. Hope I can visit you in Malaysia sometime. :D

Gotta go develop more stuff on IMVU. :] Wish me luck. <3

Tuesday. Another fucked up day. (:

I woke up today noticing I passed out last night. Fuck. -.-; All that I remembered this morning was my mom wouldn't shut her mouth. I don't know what's up with her. I just wish she wasn't here at all. Then my brother just starts pissing me off with everything. Now, I can't sleep at Nadines anymore, so I can't just escape from my house. -.-; I wish my mom burns in hell.


During Homeroom, Mr. Papaseit pissed the hell outta me. I enter the room, already pissed from my brothers and my mother. Mr. Papaseit just added more gasoline in the fire. I swear, I'd rather hear my mom bitch a whole day than listening to him.

I don't really know what happened in Music and IT. Just fuck it.

Mandarin, it kindda helped me. But oh well.


Lunch time, I didn't feel like eating. I got something, ate 1/4 of it, and went up stairs. Went to the library. Met Alex, talked about stuff, and I hugged him. I missed seeing him smile. When he got up, I just hugged him from the side. He seemed pretty happy, and he smiled a bit, so that brightened up my day.


Social Studies. It really pissed me off. I just, wanted to like die during Social. Deion and Rapha kept on wanting to use my computer. I wanted to chat with Alex. This was the Skype message during this class.

Alex: Deion, I am getting pissed at you, I
know I shouldn't but.. fine. If you go on and disturb bronwen, I shall disturb
kana. sounds like a sweet deal?
Deion: watch out i can get really
physical.
Alex: Really Physical. so you are going to
break her arm or something, so you don't consider bronwen as a friend. you
consider her as an object, huh? deion you bastard. fucking answer me. what kind
of a fucking friend are you?

After social, Deion asked for a hug and said sorry to me. Why is he like that? ._. Sometimes I just don't get him.

During badminton club, I was partners with Alex. We sat around most of the time. It was nice to just sit there with him staring up at the sky. We talked for a bit and all that. I made him laugh a bit, which made me giggle. xD Ah, I love making people happy and laugh. (: Especially someone who I just hurt really badly...

I get home and I have gym. Weee. I went to gym and just ran for 20 minutes straight. Yeah, that's not a lot, but with resistance, ypu feel the burn more. After a while, my trainer, Sugar kept on teasing me about this "cute" guy. She kept on asking me why I was staring at him when I was staring at the TV, and she was like I bet he's single, and you two would look cute together. Aieee. I got someone special for me. Thank yuu berry much. xD

I ended up talking with Ryuki about life today and etc. He got depressed for a while saying about how he hated life, and how he hated how every person he loved had changed from the beginning, and how they always just started to disappear. Then a change of events. Ceasar started to yell at me. He started to say I was being really stubborn and annoying. He's my textmate. We sometimes text at school. But today he pissed me off so much. Ugh. Sometimes I feel like I'm talking to a 5 year old when I'm talking to him. I got sorta depressed, and Ryuki told me to not be all emotional and depressed. *hypocrypt.. xD sry ryuki* and after a while, I cheered up. I especially cheered up when I saw his blog.
That was one of the pictures my "temp" maid took of me and Ryuki. Feels like forever, but there's always another time. Thank you Ryuki for being there for me. During the sad and depressing times and the crazy hyperness times. I will always be there for you, too. Now I'm just waiting for RyRy to get on so I can finally call him. Sigh. I miss April o6. And I regreat Valentine's Day last year. TT

-Browniee

Monday. The Day I Hate the Most.

This morning I was talking with RyRy, he was watching me sleep which was really sweet of him. He usually talks to me 'til I fall asleep to help my GAD(Generalized Anxiety Disorder.) It's really annoying, so RyRy makes it so much easier. Thank you, RyRy.(: Anyways, I woke up around 5:30, and got ready for school. The water was freezing cold...

Science class:
We had a Chapter 3 Physics test. Weee. It was just okay. Not too hard, not too easy. Just right. Hope I pass science this year... ;P

Physical Education:
We had soccer skills assessment today. I brought the wrong shoe that was too big for my foot. I'm a size kids 3, 4, 5. I was wearing men's 6. ;P That's the smallest van's carried with that shoe I loved. So I got a 3 out of 5 checks. Great. At least I passed soccer. I failed volleyball because I felt horrible that day. I wonder if I'm even gonna pass. -.-;

English:
The subject I loathe the most. I most likely will fail this class. I have so much missing works from it, I don't pay attention in class. (Mainly because Deion loves to annoy the hell outta me during this class because he's got nothing better to do.) During that time, everyone was like, "You should be with Alex." "Why'd you break up with Alex?" "Who's Ryan Harrison?" "I bet Alex is better than that British guy." "You haven't met him in real life? He could be a pedofile for all i know." God people. Why can't you just mind your own life, and leave me alone for at least once. I told Deion I didn't feel like eating lunch, so I just skipped. My stomach feels queasy after being teased like that.

Math:
I bascially was just fooling around for Deion since I don't really have to study for Math. It's one of my subjects that I can just relax. Tests are the only thing that consists of your grade, and I got 100 on every test, so I'm safe. :] Deion, on the other hand, is failing math and never listens. I'm such a bad friend. -.-;

Homework Club:
Mr.Hudson can get a little too overboard with all the rules. I joined this only because Deion didn't want to be alone in that club. Santi was making the private server for Flyff, and I, on the other hand, was just fooling around. Also, I saw my brother running around looking for me. I went outside the classroom and started yelling at him that I told him I had club today and for him to go home with mom, and I'd ride home with Nadine. He told me bad news, mom was in a car accident, but only the back part of her car got dent. Thank god.

Overall: I don't really care about school. Don't ask me why. I've been procrastinating more and more everyday.

Afterschool:
I went home, and joined Darknesz Flyff. It's a private server that's already been made by someone else, but Deion's a GM there. I just joined for the fun of it again. I got to level 69. I love my level. <3

Ryuki said he wanted to be a part of my blog, and I promised him, so I made a paragraph for him. ...But let's look at this first!
Ryuki says:
haha x)
gonna check out me album? ;D
Brownie says:
im writing blog first xD
Ryuki says:
haha alright. (:
i hope more about me in this post. XD
Brownie says:
its bascially all abt my school, and then now, and im talking to you now, so yeah.
your gonna be in it.
Ryuki says:
haha x)
ily!
LOL
bleh!
Brownie says:
lol xD ily2?
Ryuki says:
hahaha
chyeeeahhh.

"Chyeeeahh" - word I used for yes in 5th grade.

Anyways, paragraph decidated for Ryuki.

Dear Ryuki, you've been a dear friend to me. I always loved how you'd have something always to tell me. From girl troubles, to your shuffling stuff. It's always been exciting to hear. Even though we had a relationship of 9 months, I missed those days. I really wish my dad would bring me to Malaysia by the end of October because my dad's going, and you're there, and I don't want to miss this opportunity. I still remember April o6, o9. The day we first met. It was like heaven. You were all dressed up in black, just holding your cellphone and you were outside trying to find out where I was. I was secretly looking at you for a while until I revealed myself. Ah, the good days. I hope we'll meet again. Maybe next time when I go to Starbucks, I might just get a Caramel Frap to see how good it really is. (:

That's it for today. <3
<3brownie

Sunday. Another daily bs of my life.

I woke up at 5:03am. I skyped RyRy saying I woke up. I talked with him and I fell back asleep. I woke up again at 9:23am... and I remembered. I have church again today. I told Nadine that we should sleep a little bit longer so we could skip church. I don't really believe in god, but I respect everyone's decision. Anyways, it turns out that my mom overslept. Thank god. I didn't want her screaming at me saying I was trying to skip church once again.

Nadine and I started our morning with peking duck leftovers. You know that Cantonese dish that takes like a whole day to make? Yeah. We had that for breakfast. XD It was still delicious, amazingly. Then we played Kingdom Hearts II. Finished Port Royal and Halloween Town today, and now I'm near the world with Tron and the Master Computer in it. It was fun. xD Nadine played around a bit and tried killing some and finally gave up.

During lunch, we had ribs. My god, they were delicious. XD My mom spoils me too much. Played around with KingdomHearts II a little more. Finally at 3:20pm, we got ready to go to my new house. It took forever for my mom to get ready and then we had to turn around because she left her camera. Now you know where I get my forgetfulness from. :] Anyways, I got to the new house.

When I got to the new house, I had to do a bunch of missing work to help my grade. I was too lazy to even do any. I just talked with RyRy the whole day. I mean, it's not like I get to do that too often. ;P I also talked with Ryuki for a while. Ryuki, Ryuki, Ryuki. He's amazing. We're like supah dupah best friends. (: During summer, we talked for like forever. I told him pretty much everything. (: I'm thankful I have him.

RyRy and Ryuki played "How well do you know Bronwen(who is me)?" Ryuki got most of it because we knew each other longer, but oh well. RyRy's got forever with me. <3

Another Saturday, Same Routine.

This morning I was talking to Ryan (I call him RyRy), and we talked all morning. I fell asleep talking to him, and he told me I fell asleep and I was talking in my sleep. He told me I was asking him to not leave me, or something like that. Then I did my Kumon (it's really annoying) and I watched over RyRy while he slept. He was so cute. :3

Then after Nadine and I had steamboat. We cooked pork and beef sukiyaki. It was really delicious. Later on we went to the mall and did some shopping and went to the gym and ate out. Right now, Nadine and I are watching Nausicaa: Valley of the Wind. Pretty soon we'll be heading home and going to get some shut eye.

If you are wondering who these special people are, I'll tell you. :3

Ryan(RyRy)
-He's really amazing. He's actually my boyfriend. We got together on September 28, 2oo9. We have so much in common. He lives in UK, so there's some time difference from were I live, and where he lives. I love him so much, I actually liked him for a while and he went out with other girls, and I got jealous. But I went out with other guys trying to get over it, but it didn't really work. Oh well, we're together now. (:

Nadine
-She's my best friend, and she's amazing. XD We both love to play RockBand2, and GuitarHeroWorldTour. We enjoy ramen and anime and pretty much anything japanese.

I'll add more later. I'm pretty tired.
<3Browniee