Tuesday. Another fucked up day. (:

I woke up today noticing I passed out last night. Fuck. -.-; All that I remembered this morning was my mom wouldn't shut her mouth. I don't know what's up with her. I just wish she wasn't here at all. Then my brother just starts pissing me off with everything. Now, I can't sleep at Nadines anymore, so I can't just escape from my house. -.-; I wish my mom burns in hell.


During Homeroom, Mr. Papaseit pissed the hell outta me. I enter the room, already pissed from my brothers and my mother. Mr. Papaseit just added more gasoline in the fire. I swear, I'd rather hear my mom bitch a whole day than listening to him.

I don't really know what happened in Music and IT. Just fuck it.

Mandarin, it kindda helped me. But oh well.


Lunch time, I didn't feel like eating. I got something, ate 1/4 of it, and went up stairs. Went to the library. Met Alex, talked about stuff, and I hugged him. I missed seeing him smile. When he got up, I just hugged him from the side. He seemed pretty happy, and he smiled a bit, so that brightened up my day.


Social Studies. It really pissed me off. I just, wanted to like die during Social. Deion and Rapha kept on wanting to use my computer. I wanted to chat with Alex. This was the Skype message during this class.

Alex: Deion, I am getting pissed at you, I
know I shouldn't but.. fine. If you go on and disturb bronwen, I shall disturb
kana. sounds like a sweet deal?
Deion: watch out i can get really
physical.
Alex: Really Physical. so you are going to
break her arm or something, so you don't consider bronwen as a friend. you
consider her as an object, huh? deion you bastard. fucking answer me. what kind
of a fucking friend are you?

After social, Deion asked for a hug and said sorry to me. Why is he like that? ._. Sometimes I just don't get him.

During badminton club, I was partners with Alex. We sat around most of the time. It was nice to just sit there with him staring up at the sky. We talked for a bit and all that. I made him laugh a bit, which made me giggle. xD Ah, I love making people happy and laugh. (: Especially someone who I just hurt really badly...

I get home and I have gym. Weee. I went to gym and just ran for 20 minutes straight. Yeah, that's not a lot, but with resistance, ypu feel the burn more. After a while, my trainer, Sugar kept on teasing me about this "cute" guy. She kept on asking me why I was staring at him when I was staring at the TV, and she was like I bet he's single, and you two would look cute together. Aieee. I got someone special for me. Thank yuu berry much. xD

I ended up talking with Ryuki about life today and etc. He got depressed for a while saying about how he hated life, and how he hated how every person he loved had changed from the beginning, and how they always just started to disappear. Then a change of events. Ceasar started to yell at me. He started to say I was being really stubborn and annoying. He's my textmate. We sometimes text at school. But today he pissed me off so much. Ugh. Sometimes I feel like I'm talking to a 5 year old when I'm talking to him. I got sorta depressed, and Ryuki told me to not be all emotional and depressed. *hypocrypt.. xD sry ryuki* and after a while, I cheered up. I especially cheered up when I saw his blog.
That was one of the pictures my "temp" maid took of me and Ryuki. Feels like forever, but there's always another time. Thank you Ryuki for being there for me. During the sad and depressing times and the crazy hyperness times. I will always be there for you, too. Now I'm just waiting for RyRy to get on so I can finally call him. Sigh. I miss April o6. And I regreat Valentine's Day last year. TT

-Browniee

Monday. The Day I Hate the Most.

This morning I was talking with RyRy, he was watching me sleep which was really sweet of him. He usually talks to me 'til I fall asleep to help my GAD(Generalized Anxiety Disorder.) It's really annoying, so RyRy makes it so much easier. Thank you, RyRy.(: Anyways, I woke up around 5:30, and got ready for school. The water was freezing cold...

Science class:
We had a Chapter 3 Physics test. Weee. It was just okay. Not too hard, not too easy. Just right. Hope I pass science this year... ;P

Physical Education:
We had soccer skills assessment today. I brought the wrong shoe that was too big for my foot. I'm a size kids 3, 4, 5. I was wearing men's 6. ;P That's the smallest van's carried with that shoe I loved. So I got a 3 out of 5 checks. Great. At least I passed soccer. I failed volleyball because I felt horrible that day. I wonder if I'm even gonna pass. -.-;

English:
The subject I loathe the most. I most likely will fail this class. I have so much missing works from it, I don't pay attention in class. (Mainly because Deion loves to annoy the hell outta me during this class because he's got nothing better to do.) During that time, everyone was like, "You should be with Alex." "Why'd you break up with Alex?" "Who's Ryan Harrison?" "I bet Alex is better than that British guy." "You haven't met him in real life? He could be a pedofile for all i know." God people. Why can't you just mind your own life, and leave me alone for at least once. I told Deion I didn't feel like eating lunch, so I just skipped. My stomach feels queasy after being teased like that.

Math:
I bascially was just fooling around for Deion since I don't really have to study for Math. It's one of my subjects that I can just relax. Tests are the only thing that consists of your grade, and I got 100 on every test, so I'm safe. :] Deion, on the other hand, is failing math and never listens. I'm such a bad friend. -.-;

Homework Club:
Mr.Hudson can get a little too overboard with all the rules. I joined this only because Deion didn't want to be alone in that club. Santi was making the private server for Flyff, and I, on the other hand, was just fooling around. Also, I saw my brother running around looking for me. I went outside the classroom and started yelling at him that I told him I had club today and for him to go home with mom, and I'd ride home with Nadine. He told me bad news, mom was in a car accident, but only the back part of her car got dent. Thank god.

Overall: I don't really care about school. Don't ask me why. I've been procrastinating more and more everyday.

Afterschool:
I went home, and joined Darknesz Flyff. It's a private server that's already been made by someone else, but Deion's a GM there. I just joined for the fun of it again. I got to level 69. I love my level. <3

Ryuki said he wanted to be a part of my blog, and I promised him, so I made a paragraph for him. ...But let's look at this first!
Ryuki says:
haha x)
gonna check out me album? ;D
Brownie says:
im writing blog first xD
Ryuki says:
haha alright. (:
i hope more about me in this post. XD
Brownie says:
its bascially all abt my school, and then now, and im talking to you now, so yeah.
your gonna be in it.
Ryuki says:
haha x)
ily!
LOL
bleh!
Brownie says:
lol xD ily2?
Ryuki says:
hahaha
chyeeeahhh.

"Chyeeeahh" - word I used for yes in 5th grade.

Anyways, paragraph decidated for Ryuki.

Dear Ryuki, you've been a dear friend to me. I always loved how you'd have something always to tell me. From girl troubles, to your shuffling stuff. It's always been exciting to hear. Even though we had a relationship of 9 months, I missed those days. I really wish my dad would bring me to Malaysia by the end of October because my dad's going, and you're there, and I don't want to miss this opportunity. I still remember April o6, o9. The day we first met. It was like heaven. You were all dressed up in black, just holding your cellphone and you were outside trying to find out where I was. I was secretly looking at you for a while until I revealed myself. Ah, the good days. I hope we'll meet again. Maybe next time when I go to Starbucks, I might just get a Caramel Frap to see how good it really is. (:

That's it for today. <3
<3brownie

Sunday. Another daily bs of my life.

I woke up at 5:03am. I skyped RyRy saying I woke up. I talked with him and I fell back asleep. I woke up again at 9:23am... and I remembered. I have church again today. I told Nadine that we should sleep a little bit longer so we could skip church. I don't really believe in god, but I respect everyone's decision. Anyways, it turns out that my mom overslept. Thank god. I didn't want her screaming at me saying I was trying to skip church once again.

Nadine and I started our morning with peking duck leftovers. You know that Cantonese dish that takes like a whole day to make? Yeah. We had that for breakfast. XD It was still delicious, amazingly. Then we played Kingdom Hearts II. Finished Port Royal and Halloween Town today, and now I'm near the world with Tron and the Master Computer in it. It was fun. xD Nadine played around a bit and tried killing some and finally gave up.

During lunch, we had ribs. My god, they were delicious. XD My mom spoils me too much. Played around with KingdomHearts II a little more. Finally at 3:20pm, we got ready to go to my new house. It took forever for my mom to get ready and then we had to turn around because she left her camera. Now you know where I get my forgetfulness from. :] Anyways, I got to the new house.

When I got to the new house, I had to do a bunch of missing work to help my grade. I was too lazy to even do any. I just talked with RyRy the whole day. I mean, it's not like I get to do that too often. ;P I also talked with Ryuki for a while. Ryuki, Ryuki, Ryuki. He's amazing. We're like supah dupah best friends. (: During summer, we talked for like forever. I told him pretty much everything. (: I'm thankful I have him.

RyRy and Ryuki played "How well do you know Bronwen(who is me)?" Ryuki got most of it because we knew each other longer, but oh well. RyRy's got forever with me. <3

Another Saturday, Same Routine.

This morning I was talking to Ryan (I call him RyRy), and we talked all morning. I fell asleep talking to him, and he told me I fell asleep and I was talking in my sleep. He told me I was asking him to not leave me, or something like that. Then I did my Kumon (it's really annoying) and I watched over RyRy while he slept. He was so cute. :3

Then after Nadine and I had steamboat. We cooked pork and beef sukiyaki. It was really delicious. Later on we went to the mall and did some shopping and went to the gym and ate out. Right now, Nadine and I are watching Nausicaa: Valley of the Wind. Pretty soon we'll be heading home and going to get some shut eye.

If you are wondering who these special people are, I'll tell you. :3

Ryan(RyRy)
-He's really amazing. He's actually my boyfriend. We got together on September 28, 2oo9. We have so much in common. He lives in UK, so there's some time difference from were I live, and where he lives. I love him so much, I actually liked him for a while and he went out with other girls, and I got jealous. But I went out with other guys trying to get over it, but it didn't really work. Oh well, we're together now. (:

Nadine
-She's my best friend, and she's amazing. XD We both love to play RockBand2, and GuitarHeroWorldTour. We enjoy ramen and anime and pretty much anything japanese.

I'll add more later. I'm pretty tired.
<3Browniee